The Beginning

Today I started my liquid pre-op diet. Surprisingly enough it hasn't been too bad so far, but I've only had breakfast. Lets start at the beginning. I grew up in Va Beach and weighed practically nothing until they decided to take my tonsils out in 3rd grade. That was when things got bigger. I don't know if it was a combination of being able to eat and some personal things that happened in my younger years, but I continued to gain weight. Graduated high school at about 300lbs. Instead of the freshman 15, I think I did the freshman 50. In 2003, I was married. Nothing like ordering a dress in the biggest size and then having to have it altered to a bigger size because my butt/hips decided they weren't going to fit. After college, Eric and I decided we wanted a child. We tried for a year with no luck. Then I bought a fertility monitor and seriously tried for another year. Towards the end of that year, I went on a diet and thought about having LapBand surgery instead of a child. I knew if I went to a fertility doctor they would say "You're fat, you need to lose weight." I've been told this all my life but for some reason it never kicked in...fully. I lost twenty pounds and had my appointment scheduled to see a surgeon. The day before, I found out I was pregnant. No LapBand for me.

After I had my daughter in 2008, I weighed the most I've ever weighed, 401lbs. My knees started bothering me not long after and then I was put on blood pressure medication in December of 2010. At that point I decided to change my life...hopefully forever. I did my 6 month insurance approved doctor visits. Which really consisted of me being weighed and being asked "Do you have any questions or do you need any prescriptions?" Well of course I do...I need Adipex and a little something to help me not so crazy. Zoloft it was and is..lol I lost 50lbs going to the doctor during those six months the first few with the help of Adipex and the last 3 without it. (Adipex doesn't help hypertension) Then to the Psychiatrist for an evaluation required by my surgeon. Wow, was I scared! It wasn't so bad and after stalking them for about 2 months they finally sent my consult to my surgeons office. Surgery was scheduled that day for Aug 19th. I weighed in at the doctors office at 358lbs (gained about 10lbs on a much needed vacation to the beach...one last eating fling...lol)

Today I woke up and thought what the heck am I gonna eat for breakfast??? Well ended up eating a smoothie with non-fat strawberry cheesecake yogurt, honey, skim milk, 1/2 frozen banana and some protein powder. I also had a glass of OJ. It was delicious and to my surprise, made me full. So, instead of soup for breakfast, soup for lunch, and soup for dinner...I think I have found options.

I'm writing this blog, in hopes that it helps me deal with the hard times throughout this journey when I just really want a piece of pizza, some sour patch watermelon slices, and a nice bottled Coke. Hopefully when and if people read this, it will help them or just make them laugh and think I'm crazy...which is the case!